While I was on vacation, Mah-Boo was competing in our local Drag Idol competition. Because I was not able to attend he borrowed my Flip Camera and made a video for me. Today he tried to send it to my Facebook, and for some reason I could not watch it. Then I remembered, that i have my personal FB page on lockdown. Then I remembered why I have it on lockdown, then I just got mad all over again, and now i have to write about it.
I used to be very vocal on my FB. I had no filter…I would talk about anything and everything and I didnt really care who saw it. Don’t get the wrong idea, it wasn’t like I i went on there and put everyone on blast and talked mad shit. I just told it like it is..or was…or whatever. This once time i got on FB after a particularly frustrating 16 hour day and wrote this:
One of these things is not like the others, one of these things just doesn’t belong AKA Sometimes Stepping Down is A Step Up.
Monday, August 10, 2009 at 7:10pm | Edit Note | Delete
I work at a resort in oregon. It isnt a very good resort, it is however the first resort/casino ever built on a native american reservation, and it did at one point posses a 4 diamond rating. (they seem to have little to no interest in regaining their rating) For the first 9 months we lived here i didn’t work at all. my husband makes enough to where i really don’t have to, but because we really wanted to go on our trip to South Africa this year, i got a job, bussing tables at one of the restaurants in the resort. I guess i did a good job because 3 months later i was asked if i wanted to be the banquet captain.
I thought this would be a good opportunity for me to learn more about catering. I want to have my own catering company some day and i figured this opportunity would be a good way for me to learn. So far not good. I got the paperwork part down, i can handle the computer stuff. But so far i feel like i am nothing more than a banquet server rather than a supervisor. My boss, she’s ok i guess.
she has some serious control stuff going on which i am not accustomed to, and her assistant i can only describe as the Ice Queen. Long story short, i just don’t fit in this place with these people.
I am have been worked into exhaustion. My legs gave out yesterday, it has come close to happening in the restaurant, but i was always able to keep it together. Banquets is different.
the crew seems to have it a little more together than the restaurant crew, no offense to anyone. But i just don’t fit here.
I am not used to working like a dog, and being in constant fear that the boss might not like the way a flower arraignment is set on a table and tweak the heck out on me. Not to mention, if her assistant talks to me like i am stupid one more time i might tweak the hell out on her..she don’t know my ghetto side, somebody betta tell ‘er!
There is a way to do a good job, in a positive way and have your employees work together as a team out of love for the job, and not fear or obligation or monetary necessity.
It has taken me some years to learn this, but i know it is possible. i have had some really good chefs and managers over the years that have taught me this.
I haven’t always been a good employee. there have been times that i have been the #1 whiner and complainer/ shit starter. I will admit, there have been times i would have fired myself if it was possible. This is not the case here, i didn’t get promoted in 3 months from busser to supervisor because i am an idiot and i suck at my job. I actually do a damn good job here, and i know it. I’m not cocky in the least, it’s just the truth. I worked for a company before this that beat me over the head with guest service, and guest satisfaction. (thank you Disney), so i do here, what i did there, minus the bitching and moaning, and it works.
But the stress of this new gig has finally gotten to me. i haven’t passed out or anything, but my body is exhausted, plain and simple. And the stress of having to hold it in, and hold my tongue every time the Ice queen speaks to me like a simpleton, or looks down her nose at me. this girl is 8 years younger than i am and she talks to me like i am a child!
all of this has gotten to me and i need a break.
i got my shift covered today, and i have an MRI tomorrow to see where i am at.
(i think if i have another MRI i am going to turn into a magnet!)
But i have made the decision that when i go back to work, i am going to speak to the higher ups about transferring back to the restaurant. It had it’s headaches, but at least i knew that they were coming. no walking on eggshells. i had a a pretty regular schedule and it was just better for me all around.
i should never have taken this job.
i haven’t learned anything about catering that i didn’t already know.
i am nobody’s dog
and i am nobody’s child up in here
i do not beg for approval and i do not do tricks
i am not like those people, i do not belong.
That was it. Verbatim. I just so happened to be FB friends with a lady that worked at the casino..hell i was friends with several people there on fb. Well this bitch decided to print that out and sell ‘delia down the river. This is what happened:
Victory! (albeit small)
Tuesday, September 1, 2009 at 7:43pm | Edit Note | Delete
I have not said much about this but to a select few people because i wanted to wait to see it through to the end. My privacy was violated ya’ll straight up. Im no fool, i know that anything you write on Facebook, no matter how many precautions you take is never absolutely private. I write thoughts, and opinions on here, so people can read them, SELECT people, i don’t have anyone on here that i don’t trust. (at least not now!) The last note i wrote about work, was taken and printed off by some one i work with ( and don’t think that i don’t know who you are, just because i am still nice to you does not mean that i don’t hate yer guts) and shown to my ex-supervisor and the Ice Queen. They, in turn, took my own personal blog and showed it to the HR director at work…
While i was still on medical leave i received a phone call from one of the restaurant managers that commented on afore mentioned blog. She was calling to inform me that, My ex supervisor, was arraigning a meeting between my current manager, my former supervisor, the food and beverage director and the director of human resources this coming wednesday, with regard to a blog i had written on my facebook page and a comment or comments made by my current manager. HELL to the NO! Last time i checked this was still America and i was still allowed my freedoms of speech!
And where does Anyone get off printing my Blog and taking it to HR at my place of employment?
HOW ABOUT, A little less focus on my blog and a little more focus on doing your own damn job and making this lodge a better place to visit and work and maybe, just maybe we can get our 4 diamond rating back?! (imagine what this place could be if we put the energy that is being used trying to tear each other down into making this a better place!!! and further more, it would be nice to have another 4 diamond establishment on my resume ;0)
There has been an ongoing battle between the management/supervisory team in the food and beverage department where i work, and i for one am not going to participate, i don’t do drama, especially work drama. This deliberate breach of trust was an attempt to get me to participate in the dramatics and goings on of this feud. I am friends with some of the people involved, but in no way do i want to participate. It is very VERY clear where the problem lies, and what needs to be done, however; the upper management seems to be over looking it, but what do i know? They must have their reasons ;0)
Anywhooper…you guys know me, i don’t take crap like this laying down! But i also don’t act a fool either. After declining to meet with my former supervisor about my own personal facebook page, I made a couple of phone calls and i left a couple of messages to speak with the director of HR myself . I went to see her this afternoon. I was a little nervous because i have seen some things happen here with employees that i have never ever seen in all of my days, so i really didnt know what to expect. But the director is a really awesome, down to earth level headed lady, who is not born and raised here (don’t ask me how but i know it helps).
When i walked into her office, on her desk was a copy of my blog, I told her that i was there because some one i work with, breached my trust and printed off my blog from my own personal website and decided to bring it to work and use it against me.
Of course she already knew what i was referring to and she assured me that i was in no trouble at all, and that the person who furnished the copy was told that there was nothing that could be done to me, because i have done nothing wrong, and she even went as far as to tell me that nothing i had written was untrue, or even that damning….TAKE THAT!!!!
I was a little in shock, but grateful. Finally Score one for me. She told me she was not aware of, nor would she participate in any meeting regarding my facebook. I asked her if we could shred the blog, and she did me one better by ripping it up right in front of me.
We both agreed that this place has more dramatics than we have ever seen in our lives. She told me that the food and beverage director had nothing but good things to say about me and that my husband and i are in no danger of repercussions due to anything on anyone’s facebook and that she was no longer going to deal with anymore facebook goings on (apparently this is the 4th time some one has tried to bust some one with a facebook comment or posting, and she is sick and tired of it)…
Sweet friggin releif ya’ll. i toast this small victory with a mr. pibb! i know it isnt much, but in a place like this where drama reigns supreme, it’s a nice feelin.
Tomorrow is another day, and perhaps another headache, but we will deal with that then :0)
And for the Record i have removed the untrustworthy personnel from my friends list, if this person is still on your list i ask that you do me a solid and keep this away from that person’s eyes….thank you
That was the last time I posted a personal note on FB. After that i cleaned out my friend’s list and stop talking to people at work about anything personal. People already thought i was stuck up, so it was even worse after that. Not to mention, lonely.
Facebook is a wonderful place. I love the fact that i can keep tabs on all my friends around the world and share my life with them. I am so grateful it exists. But it can also be a powerful weapon. If the HR lady wanted to, she could have fired me. We were on a reservation…they are their own government. It could have been a real mess. Even Mr. Jones could have lost his job. All over me and my mouth.
Thank goodness that lady had some sense.
Because of that, i now have this blog. And i choose to keep it anonymous until a book deal falls out of the heavens and I no longer have to wait tables or bar tend. That would be amazing! So, if by chance you do know, or discover who I am, please be respectful of my Anonymity. I would gladly do the same for you